'Motivated' is not an adjective I'd ascribe to myself.
I remember this PTA meeting years ago, when a teacher gushed to my parents, "What a motivated child you have!" Mum, Dad, and I muffled the synchronised snort of sarcasm. 'Motivated' is an adjective they wouldn't ascribe to me either.
And yet half the human population that knows me thinks it's seeing an enthusiastic 'bubbly' girl (God how I hate that adjective!!! Bubbly. Bloody hell) who swears by Professor Keating's carpe diem and is always busy doing something new.
The big 'BUT WHY??' question got me wondering though. I mean, the other half of my homo sapien acquaintances knows me too well to see I'm always busy doing nothing! Par exemple. The stack of unread books in my room skyscrapers over the pile of read ones. The 'how-could-you-have-not-heard-this-band??!!' playlists remain unheard. The beautiful paper in my three sketchpads wait for a shape, a line, a Van Gogh-esque dash even. All the places I want to see (forget the ones from the World's Great Wonders lists, I haven't been to all the parks in my own city yet) are still just words on one of my many, many lists. Lists of things to do, of things that might never get done...
Maybe that's it. People think I'm motivated because I'm always planning the grand things I'll do. And every time I gaze in admiration and envy at truly motivated people (who can somehow derive so much from the smallest slivers of inspiration life has to offer) and vow that tomorrow will be a brighter, more creative day, someone or something nudges me back to that comfort zone, with a whisper of 'There's always time, and your whole life ahead'.
Well, I don't think so any more. 21 suddenly seems too many years to be wasted.
Carpe Diem. There are millions of things to do. And I'm going to do them.
11 critical insights:
I'll drink to that..
and...ahem...21? stay in that comfort zone for a few weeks more :)
"...I haven't been to all the parks in my own city yet..." ROTFLMAO!! :)) Literally, tears in my eyes. The only people who go to parks are crapping chittukutuvis and Groper Ganesh. Which one are you now?
Your worst attempt at comparison/simile/analogy. tsk.. tsk.. :)
gnothi seauton: thanks for reminding me that another year has gone by wasted :)
notgogol: hahahaha...i agree similes are not my area of expertise. But the parks!!! Have you even been to any of these parks?? Sigh. Why do you kill such rose-tinted views of the world?!! :)
p.s. I am yet to decipher what ROTFLMAO stands for. Pls to elaborate :)
this one is very matured...just when i was about to say "you have time and a whole life ahead" you had put it down yourself...books to read, bands to listen is something everyone of us plan...planning to put a van-gogh-esque line on one's sketchpad is new!..
and the "bubbly" part is totally true..21 something female who's sketching her way away in the office smacks very much of bubbly...;-)
neither is chat/sms lingo! tsk tsk.. Rollingonthefloorlaughingmeassoff!
Parks.. parks.. lol! No man, why would I go to a park filled with people desperatly trying to find some space to make out.. hmm... come to think of it.. sounds like a good plan actually. Will make for interesting conversation.. "so you know, I walked up to this ugly couple making out..yada yada yada.. ".. Good Idea. Its on my next weekend agenda :)
notgogol: i was thinkin along the lines of nature, verdant beauty, etc etc...but your perspective is truly refreshing :) let me know how much you enjoy the weekend entertainment :)
bharani: you can't get enough of that argument, yes??!! I am NOT bubbly!! :)
Dude, which park in chennai has all the things u mentioned? clearly u don't enjoy my kind of entertainment :| I hope though, some day you do appreciate the nicer things in life - catching groper ganesh red handed, discussing shiv sena ideology with grocer ganesh when rain forces one into saffron grocery shops and challenging doper ganesh to a spell bee when he's high :| Jokes apart, I do actually enjoy the things i've just mentioned :) delete this comment once read. As it is people don't like me. I don't want online folks to think I'm some weird bloke.
notgogol: "I don't want online folks to think I'm some weird bloke".
Really now!! :D
Goes without saying you enjoy those activities. Embrace your innate weirdness sir :)
btw, what bookmark art thou referring to on my other blog??
lol.."groper ganesh, grocer ganesh and doper ganesh"...awesome...out of curiosity, is "groper ganesh" what i think it is? ;-)
We're all dead, aren't we?
accha haan.. weren't u supposed to make me a bookmark? at least i thought it was a battletank bookmark, remember?
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